so over it (so sick of you)

you’ve messed up my life not just once - you’ve ruined part of me a  countless times - you’ve made me sick of myself a hundred times over - aren’t you done yet? . when i walked out of ur life i thought ive already saved myslf frm you, that ive already spared myslf frm everything that has something to do with you-
i cant blame people for thinking m not yet over you having them knew everything ive been thru with you- it has always been you- but thats just it - if you cant let go of those memories then just let go of me. .is it too much to ask?
yes, you made me the best at one thing somehow - with you i was at my best in doing this thing which i thought i was only good at - CRYING.
i knw myslf better. at first  i thought it was just pain that conceals all the love i once had for you, but i am wrong.
please dont mess up with me again by scaring those “someones” who could be more deserving of me.
i dont have anything to do with you anymore - im pretty fine & happy  already. if you really cared enough then why cant you just be happy for me?
all this time you’ve been trying to drag me down trying to give me doubts on myslf too, but no,  you’re just making yourself a hopeless pathetic idiot crying over a spilled milk. im already done with you- not for any other reason but simply because the feelings’ just long been gone..
moving on - its my time.
you once had me but you screwed it up. now its no longer my fault if its your time to be in a mess too- its your choice. ive had my share of same misery also &  you’re well-aware of that. isnt it a shame that you’ve screwed me once and now you said you regret it much but just the same you’re still screwing me up?
try to win me back yes you could - but this is the only thing i could ever assure you -  YOU ALREADY LOST ME & FOR THAT,YOU COULD NO LONGER EVER HAVE ME.
i am better off without you so for God’s sake just let me be!