alliversary

Loving has two phases. First: Loving the person because of who he/she is. Second: Loving the person despite who he/she is not. The first sparks love. The second one makes it last.
meeting him the first time? no sign of spark at all.no putting of best foot forward. and after  knowing who he really is?with the “topaks” and all? i wish it was already an excuse enough to convince myself not to take another step forward and fall so hard. but i guess its really  meant to be when even the times you can’t stand him, he’s still the only person on your mind.
he just walked in and made you  realize why it nvr worked with anyone else before.
i was at first confused. battling with what i feel against what i really think but in the end, love isn’t about who is better with who, what he’s got on, and how many abs he’s got under his shirt. Its neither about neglecting your life and everyone in it before he came around, nor about losing your priorities and
giving up your pride. Love is understanding each other’s backgrounds, being there for someone when you don’t have to, staying  up for the other even if yougotta get up early the next day, its about laughing and taking care of each others heart, not walking away the second things aren’t perfect like they seem to be in the movies.  you get into the biggest fights with the people you care about the most because those are the relationships that you’re willing to fight for  because truth of the matter is, if you work at something, and do it together, push each others limits and love harder, it’s better than the movies, and it
feels better too.  When you truly care for someone, you don’t look for faults. You don’t look for answers. You don’t look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults & you overlook excuses. The measure of love is when you love without measure. There are rare chances that you’ll meet the person you love & who loves you in return. So once you have it, don’t ever let go. The chance might never come your way again.  yeah very rare. rare person,rare chance, and rare moment that sometimes u even never expct it. like mine..its when i stopped looking for love to take a rest that it found me. he was  everything I was looking for, when I wasn’t even looking. and mine was a case of gradually beginning to love him and never know exactly when it happened. i never knew that someone would come along. a fateful  day i never knew my whole world is about to change but i couldn’t exactly remember when it actually changed. yes it changed  the day when i told myself that ive finally  fallen for him but the question is when was that day?  it was just like as if a switch has been flickered somewhere, and the person who was just a total stranger  is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.  and then all of a sudden  all those cheesy love songs you used to make fun of started to make sense.funny isn’t it?   at first i was so in denial with everything and i must admit, ive been guilty for quite a time. guilty for thinking that it might not work and for somewhat praying the feelings will just go away. well   I guess I’m just scared. Scared of being hurt. Scared of hurting someone else. but what the heck, i am most scared of missing the chance of having someone who cud make me the happiest that ive never been.. and after the  hardships, fights and craps weve been through all this time, after discovering each other’s flaws and differences and yet still willingly embraces each other  with so much love,
knowing you at your worst- and still think you’re the best, was when i realized that ive found a love that is worth keeping for the rest of my life.
it doesnt matter whether you share a minute, a month, or a lifetime with him is uncertain, but the fact that you found that person, even if for a moment, means more than the lifespan life allows you to have with him.
but what if finding the love of your life means changing the life that you love?
I use to think I knew myself. I had every scenario planned out. that i wont change a bit of myself for any person and for any reason. but when he tried to?  I complied.
well i dont and wont actually mind if it wud mean  waking  up next to him  every morning..(soon)..and having him fall asleep in my embrace  with his arm  wrapped around my  waist while peacefully breathing on my  chest..and i cud only say, i wont trade this for anything in the world..

..advance happy “ALLiversary” dad =)