glass splinter

sometimes, when you are used to a life getting all the love and attention you want, when u feel so much adored by the people you love and even the people around you, that when you find one person who doesnt make you feel exactly the same, you tend to get a lil edgy. and its either u cud just shrug your shoulders or  raise a brow and say who cares? he’s not a lose anyway? but what if you then realized that he is not just anybody and his comforting attention simply matters a lot? that u have to bend ur rules and give in to what is must– if he  cant spoil you  as what  others usually do?then, it must be you who shud do the twist of what was used to be. just that, it makes you feel somewhat defiant why on earth you have to do that? the answer is simple i know- you are just helplessly inlove that’s why. but then, the thought of it is like a termite eating your thoughts up or a glass splinter working its way to ur heart–  always defying yourself- a battle of u against yourself why u must do that in the first place? and why him of all  people? you’ve already dealt with what you thought as tough ones in the past.. charmed them out, and had them live with ur standards and so what makes him a difference? is it just fate’s way of telling you that youve only had the tough .. that there’s stil  this tougher one who ought to be ur kyrptonite just like superman’s?

and it just makes you so feeble..so helpless.. why cant you just be the normal you and not give it  a damn? but well, you love the man anyway? its a good consolation enough so i guess i just have to let it be.. i cant say i am a beggar here .but if needed be, i wont mind.. and for that i know, that beggars cant be choosers.. so i guess i just have to loosen up and be contented of what i have and what i am getting .. bottomline: love is after all, still that matters..

[ mushy as it cud be but that's a fact =) ]